Did some rearranging of the pictures hanging on the walls ... just need a picture of Wesley David now to have 8 generations of Noble descendants hanging over my desk. As usual, Ricky holds place of honor.
Missing him today;
NEVER FORGOTTEN;
Gone, but not forgotten
Never forgotten
Where's the sunny smile
The giggles of delight
I look up
The mischievous grin hangs
Above my desk
The giggles hover
Out of reach
Remembered
But not heard
Never forgotten
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
Friday, July 23, 2010
Ramblings
Time to get some feelings down again .... I guess. Been a long time since I've been here. It's so easy to put blogging off.
Got a call from Janet yesterday ... and ... yeppers, there goes my BP through the roof again. Still not down where is should be yet, but it's getting there.
Mom is sinking further into her own world. I still feel guilty for not being there for her. She did refuse my help last year, in fact, was very vehement about NOT wanting me there. That felt like the proverbial punch in the gut. No matter how many times I tell myself that I've done what I could, the guilt feelings keep coming back. However, the way Gran raised me, a promise is meant to be kept, good or bad and I DID promise her that I wouldn't let her go into a Care Home and there she is ... in Cassell Holme ... so sad. This is when I need my superman powers to kick in so I could fly there and see her and turn around and fly to Alberta to be with Robin.
Can't believe that I'm going to be a GREAT grandmother ... still don't feel old enough to be a grandmom ... but .... then I look in the mirror and ... sure enough ... there's Gran looking back at me. Last summer Aunt Eileen and
I were talking about our ages and she feels the same way ... cannot understand how she could possibly be in her 80's ... makes me want to shake these young people who are wishing their lives away, wanting to grow up so fast. I just want to scream at them .... grab onto every minute ... live it ... love it ... make many memories and to hell with the mistakes ... look at the mistakes and learn from them and go on from there ... LIVE your life so that when you do get old (and you will) there will be no regrets ... no 'Wish I had done that when I had the chance to'
Speaking of regrets ... not too many here ... I did manage to 'carpe diem' as often as I could .. I DO wish I had gotten my motorcycle license and taken that trip up the Alaska Highway ... been there twice now and love it, but still firmly believe that the best way to see everything would be on a bike. Oh well .. arthritis has come to live with me, so this will never happen and I do treasure the trips that I have made ... so not much regret here, just a tiny 'If only' ... and I do have all those great pictures and even better memories. Sometimes I feel that, in another life, I lived in the Yukon ... how else could it have felt like I was going home every time I was there?
Well enough of this ... Why does this always seem like a school assignment and that someone is going to grade it and mark all my grammar, spelling and punctuation mistakes with a big red circle???
Got a call from Janet yesterday ... and ... yeppers, there goes my BP through the roof again. Still not down where is should be yet, but it's getting there.
Mom is sinking further into her own world. I still feel guilty for not being there for her. She did refuse my help last year, in fact, was very vehement about NOT wanting me there. That felt like the proverbial punch in the gut. No matter how many times I tell myself that I've done what I could, the guilt feelings keep coming back. However, the way Gran raised me, a promise is meant to be kept, good or bad and I DID promise her that I wouldn't let her go into a Care Home and there she is ... in Cassell Holme ... so sad. This is when I need my superman powers to kick in so I could fly there and see her and turn around and fly to Alberta to be with Robin.
Can't believe that I'm going to be a GREAT grandmother ... still don't feel old enough to be a grandmom ... but .... then I look in the mirror and ... sure enough ... there's Gran looking back at me. Last summer Aunt Eileen and
I were talking about our ages and she feels the same way ... cannot understand how she could possibly be in her 80's ... makes me want to shake these young people who are wishing their lives away, wanting to grow up so fast. I just want to scream at them .... grab onto every minute ... live it ... love it ... make many memories and to hell with the mistakes ... look at the mistakes and learn from them and go on from there ... LIVE your life so that when you do get old (and you will) there will be no regrets ... no 'Wish I had done that when I had the chance to'
Speaking of regrets ... not too many here ... I did manage to 'carpe diem' as often as I could .. I DO wish I had gotten my motorcycle license and taken that trip up the Alaska Highway ... been there twice now and love it, but still firmly believe that the best way to see everything would be on a bike. Oh well .. arthritis has come to live with me, so this will never happen and I do treasure the trips that I have made ... so not much regret here, just a tiny 'If only' ... and I do have all those great pictures and even better memories. Sometimes I feel that, in another life, I lived in the Yukon ... how else could it have felt like I was going home every time I was there?
Well enough of this ... Why does this always seem like a school assignment and that someone is going to grade it and mark all my grammar, spelling and punctuation mistakes with a big red circle???
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